yeah, i'm thinkin' 'bout you

in all its misery it will always be what i love and hated
and maybe take a ride to the other side.

of course, being the studious student that i so explicitly am i'm not doing any work whatsoever - sunday's my homework day, as you can clearly see - and i'm writing on this instead. aside from writing for ff.net school and band stuff has been occupying my life to no end; i've been burning out left right and centre like a short matchstick.
speaking of ff.net i'm really surprised - and of course flattered - by the amazing success and attention we're all mad here has received. i didn't think people would actually take interest in it - it's something i wrote on a whim one night, all 14 chapters of it - and i thought it would be too rushed to actually be likable. to those who read, reviewed and favourited/alerted the story thank you from the bottom of my heart! i really do appreciate it - you guys are awesome.


but yeah, back to what i was trying to say - life nowadays is just schoolschoolschoolschoolbandschoolschoolschoolwritingfanfictionschoolschoolschoolschool. not the greatest life - i hardly go out nowadays because everyone's either clubbing (which isn't my thing, really), sick with the (swine...just kidding) flu or concentrated on their schoolwork like i am *suppresses snort*. my diet mainly consists of either mineral water, french vanilla or monster - the latter being more common. obviously this isn't really helping my already ailing condition...but honestly as a post-secondary student you don't really have time to do many things - eating a full meal being one of them. i do have reading week after this week, however, so if i'm not riddled with band practice and songwriting-block i'll have the opportunity to finally eat some real food.
i really don't have much to say today...i just felt like i needed to complain about school because that's what everyone does during midterm time, haha. i actually don't really have midterms...more like tedious video and radio assignments that are worth a quarter of my final mark. i really should get started on those soon...but i still need to write up scripts for them and such. ugh.
as for my fanfiction.net life, i do have a few things i'd like to address. after we're all mad here is finished i promised readers i'd upload a new story, based on whichever wins in the poll. s far it seems that the 358/2 days rewrite is winning, which is great 'cause i've already got a few chapters written down for that. the problem is i keep rewriting said chapters 'cause i keep changing my mind about the plot -_- axel is a damn hard character to write! the fact that he's hard to read and everything makes writing his character such a challenge to portray in written word, and since this is going to be a mostly IU story i need to make him as in-character as possible. i'm debating whether he should be friendly or stoic towards naminé in the beginning of the story; is it more realistic for axel to befriend her in the beginning because she's in need of company, or is it better if he's cold and whatnot to her until later on the story when he realizes just how much she means to his best friend? i stuck with the former idea first because it was easier to do, but then when i thought about that part in C.O when he threatens to kill her to get through to marluxia i got second thoughts. if he was a friend to her in the beginning why would he be so willing to kill her in castle oblivion? doesn't make much sense, does it? so i shifted over to the idea that naminé didn't mean much to him at first, until he met roxas. he notices how roxas and naminé grow closer and he sort of mulls over the relationship, wondering how two nobodies are able to feel the way they do, and then he sorta gets the idea that naminé means a lot to roxas and grows to care for her later on in the story. the latter sounds more realistic, but it's harder to write and i'm still trying to find my way around it -_-
as for the other story i'm planning to upload later on, the country-ish story with roxas and ven as brothers who run the old family ranch, i haven't really started writing it yet but i really want to. i've got a bunch of ideas for it already - including a possible lemon...but we'll have to see how my maturity will fare with that (mm...barn sex) - and i really need to get them all down before i lose them. i was kind of iffy about it first because i'm kinda getting tired of writing AU stories and want to get back on the IU state of mind, but this idea didn't want to leave. this might be my last AU story for awhile...but then again i still have to update illuminate, and then there's the axel-centric midquel i've already got a couple chapters down for...ugh. this is definitely going to be a problem in the near future...
hopefully when summer rolls around (may-august...thank god post-secondary doesn't go for so long) i'll be able to write more...that is if i don't get my apprenticeship for school by then. the only reason why i was able to update shine every few days was because i was writing that during the summer when i had no school and i had a lot more time.
alrighty, now that i'm finished my talk for today, time for my featured song:

what can i say about this? it's a great song - not exactly seen as a classic since the album was released in 2000, but it's still a great song nonetheless. definitely one of my sunny sunday songs; it's got one of those beats you walk around to on a nice day.