running to the future.

sometimes its hard to keep on running,
we work so much to keep it going.
don't make me want to give up

i want to get this down before i'm too intoxicated to do so, haha.
so 2008, you had your ups and downs, but what kind of year isn't like that?
really, if everything was just either or, life wouldn't be so exciting. if everything was perfect and lacked the obstacles we work so hard to overcome, there would be nothing to expect out of life, and we wouldn't have the drive to keep moving forward because we know every day will be almost exactly the same. sometimes you need to have a few bumps along the way to truly appreciate what you have.
though it really doesn't look like it, i feel like i've done the most growing this year, and no, i obviously don't mean physically, hahaha. i feel like i know more, and that i know where i belong. i've gone through everything with the greatest people i have ever known, and i hope that our paths will continue to run side by side as the future approaches. some of you i have known for nearly a decade now, and i truly appreciate the fact that we are still good friends and that we still set time for each other. you guys are the most awesome people i have ever met and i wouldn't trade you for anyone else.
to those of you who i no longer speak to, or to those i have simply drifted apart from, i hope that life will treat you well and that this year has been as educational and fulfilling as it has for me. there was a time in our lives where our paths have crossed, but now that time has passed and we must move on. i will not forget you, because you have made a big impact in my life and i hope that someday again we will see each other.
i'm not saying that my year was perfect; i have experienced a lot of loss this year and it will take time to get over it, but i learn from these things and i grow stronger from them. i just want everyone to feel the same, because this year has taught me that being constantly angry and pessimistic doesn't solve anything; it only makes things look worse, when they're really not as bad as they seem. you're wasting energy on complaining about how things should have been when really you should be using that energy on concentrating on setting yourself up for what's in store for you.
i have made a lot of mistakes this past year, and the years before that, and i do regret making all of them and the consequences that followed. i do think about it from time to time, but i know it won't bother me forever because i can't let it take over my life like that. i'm human and i make mistakes, but it's also human to forgive. i know now that the people who have been with me through these times and are still around to consider me their friend are the people i belong with, and i am truly thankful for you all.
so in hopes that the new year will bring new opportunities, new friends, new beginnings, and anything new and good, i wish you all a very happy new year, and good luck to you all in the near future!

bring it on, 2009!

bring it fuckin' on.