can you still feel the butterflies?

i close my eyes and believe
that wherever you are, an angel for me.

when my dad picked me up from school today he told me that my brother's friend's mom had died last night. she succumbed to breast cancer after nearly a year-long struggle. she had been in the hospital for the past few weeks; she wasn't getting any better.
i never really knew her, but my mom was acquainted with her and she told me that she was a very kind person - the type that doesn't deserve that kind of fate.
whenever something like this happens people always wonder why god punishes the people who don't deserve it. you get all the good ones dying out on you and you're left with the thieves, murderers, radicals, liars, and con artists. it's so hard to find a genuinely nice person nowadays because most of them seem to have either died already or they're in the process of dying. it's like somebody up there doesn't want the human race to improve itself.
i've never really had faith in society. it worsened when i got that seasonal job at toys r us during christmas time; it's unbelievable, how nasty people can be around the holidays. i've never seen so many selfish, greedy, self-centered people packed together in all my life. and then there's just my generation - people born in the 90s - the next ones in line to lead society. you've got bright kids killing their brain cells smoking this and that and passing out drunk on the floor at three in the morning. teen pregnancies and one-sided relationships. tight jeans on boys. girls overflowing with hormones. you've got all the pete wentzs and nicole scherzingers all grouped together in high schools, universities and colleges talking about the next time they're going to get high. facebook and myspace. twitter. ipods and motorola. aritzia. volcom. lululemon. billabong. fcuk. converse. rofl. lmao. wtf. omg.
maybe god, or whoever controls everything isn't punishing the people who don't deserve it - maybe it doesn't even have to be seen as a punishment. maybe he's just relieving the good people of living in this hellhole so they don't have to put up with all this bullshit. he's giving them an early start to living the good life while the rest of us waste away down here. leave the tainted ones to destroy themselves while the goodhearted folk watch and observe from up above.
i dunno. just sayin'.